I wasn’t going to write this post and then I thought well why not.
I woke up this morning and I just instantly started crying. I am talking just bawling and couldn’t stop. I was seriously scared and had no clue why I was crying. I finally called my mom and got her to stay on the phone for a while and talk with me . She wanted to come and get me and have me go over to her house but she finally got me to calm down a little bit. I tried to message david and have him call at lunch but never had any luck.
I don’t know particularly WHY i started crying like that, and since then I have had about 4 more crying spells. I think it has a lot to do with my sleep issues and all the crazy dreams . I think it also has maybe something to do with how the last year just hasn’t really been kind to me. So much underlying issues and things that might not exactly be on the front burner of my mind…I just hope that some how another I can figure it out and figure out how to deal because that was some scary stuff.
I mean heck I am a cry baby, I am sensitive as can be, but to just have that as soon as I got up and not know why …UGH! I have cried so much I have gotten a headache and I can’t talk myself into eating anything even though I am starving!
I am pretty much not online today. … just trying to have some time to figure this out. I just wanted to write it out and see if it helped. It did a littleĀ bit …
later gators
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