I found an myspace message from one of my “ex’s” (more detailed explaination, ,he was my best friend, just we had “advantages”)
anyways, i was setting up my myspace mail account (firstname.lastname@example.org) and there it was. from right after david and I got engaged (ie, i gave EVERYONE in my past up because they were guys and all that crap)
well it was talking about even though we were engaged he still wanted to be friends and visit and talk on the phone and stuff (we were more friends than anything, just so you know) and he even signed it Love Ya, Mean Beam.
in the 3 years i knew him he never said those words or even wrote them to me. I guess now i know he really did care and want me to be happy. mean beam was my nickname for him, and i couldnt believe he wrote that.
i do wish i could still be friends with him. i mean if only to message eachother or say hi on the phone. lately david has told me if i want to talk to any of them it would be ok, but I have mixed feelings on the sittuation… afraid of digging up the past i guess.
my mom finally has decided to cancel her cell phones. so for the first time since 12th grade (um almost 8 years ago.) I won’t have a phone anymore. david and I MIGHT go with t-mobile but i’m not so sure, because of my broadband. that crap is so freaking expensive, but i detest dialup and i cant do DSL here because of my moms security system) so i’m not sure what we are gonna do. i just dont feel safe when i’m out without a phone!
now the woman is dingbats when it comes to contracts..but she did decide to go back with DIRECTV for satelite. i can’t win them all i guess but at least i can watch some decent tv. i hate dishnetwork. their packages freakin suck.
ok well i’m out. need to straighten up my room, and hopefully my hair.