I keep opening up WP out of habit and I want to write here. I want to write here so bad it hurts. The thing is there is nothing I can write about. My world is upside down and I can’t write about it here. It’s just too painful…
There is no sunshine and rainbows and nichole’s quirky randomness. My world has turned into obssessing and depressing.
I basically stay in bed and try and sleep. or lay there and stare into space. Since friday I have ate: 3 croutons, 3 bites of cookie, 3 crackers, 1 can of beef broth, a piece of toast, a couple bites of pasta, and a bite of chicken fried rice.
I keep hydrated for fear of getting something horrible like kidneys shutting down/infection. I drink apple juice and water..tried sprite but fizzy hasn’t been my friend
I have always been such an open person, and for me not to write what went down and such is killing me, but the thing is I won’t ever be able to write it here or anywhere other than a word doccument on my computer..
I just sit here and pray and hope things turn out because thats all I can do at this point.
David & I are fine. Noone is hurt/dead or anything.. and thats all I can really say..
well I just wanted to write some sort of something ..thought it might help to turn on the computer and write a post..