I don’t know if anyone who reads this blog or even knows me in general really realizes that I grew up in a cult. More specifically- a doomsday cult. We didn’t celebrate birthdays, christmas, easter- and of course we didn’t do halloween! We went to church on Saturdays and we followed all the old testament holy days and food laws. I started attending when I was 2 and I pretty much went until I was out of high school (I can’t exactly remember when we quit going- I just know it was sometime between 2000-2002 ) I don’t really want to get into that too much right now- I am just throwing it out there for a little background on why one time in my life, I want to have a super festive and amazing christmas! . I hope to cover more about the cult eventually. Maybe I will not only help myself by getting things out, but maybe I can help someone else right?
So, I didn’t mean to disappear for so long! I was doing so good there right? September and October were actually pretty OK months compared to the way things have been going. The only thing that has been super crap is that I have been plagued with migraines a lot lately. The last week of October going into November I had a migraine EVERY FREAKING DAY! Also, for some reason my mood has just been SUPER DUPER CRANKY and I have became very- “short” with people /the fur folks and I don’t really know why that is. That is not my personality, AT ALL. I am trying to work on it though! It have to be VERY conscious of what I am doing and saying!
All of this kind of all ties together though, I promise! I am DETERMINED to have a very PEACEFUL and FESTIVE holiday season! I’m talking watching Christmas movies, having festive snacks & hot chocolate, decorating.. I may draw the line at christmas music because it isn’t really my favorite (but maybe some elevation church music??) I would love to do a christmas eve candlelight christmas and I would super love to maybe be able to go to biltmore at christmas, because that is the one time of year I have never been, and biltmore is my happy place!
So I am all about PEACE and. trying to be FESTIVE for once and I hope it works out. David is generally a scrooge but- I think we can def. try to make things special 🙂 especially with how things have been the past 3 years or so.
Yes, this is a short post, but I should have more coming at you later I hope! Right now I have to let luna out of her crate and see what we are going to get into today! I don’t have a lot of house stuff that has to be done so.. we’ll see!
