*if you leave some bitchy ass comment on this post just because it’s about jason belive me i know where the hell delete is , of course most of you have realized by now he is my best friend and i’m glad that he still wants to be a part of my life, so i shouldn’t have to worry*
I can remember being 20 when i first started talking to J. I didn’t know how to do SHIT for myself. he was 21 and had already been out on his own and this that and the other. i was so innocent it was scary. seriously you may not know i had never been kissed or anything else till the summer i turned 20! I went on my first date when i was on the cusp of being 20 (i was about 2 weeks out from my 20th birthday)
When i got into appalachian it was a running joke with me and J about how the hell i’d ever survive without having someone to do my shit for me.i was not only lazy and had no clue about like anything, i was spoiled to freaking death.
i used to get up to get ready for school and my mom was still doing my hair at this point (if i still was at home, i’d still have her do it all the time)i was a whiny demanding little thing lol.
i think the reason J and i always got along so well is he didn’t put up with me n my crap.if i started whining he wouldn’t let me. if i wanted to be indecisive, i had another thought coming. he never let me say “I don’t know” or “maybe” he wanted me to have an opinion, and more importantly he wanted me to SHARE my opinion and not hold back.
I once told him if i boiled water it would burn. he told me he didnt think that was possible …of course thats why I thought I could do it!
anyways, i guess i’m saying in many ways i’ve always been lucky to have jason. he doesn’t let me get away with all my annoying little quirks that i used to have. he doesn’t let me get lost in me. and he trys to get me to get out there, be myself, not hold back and have fun. and I am greatful for that more than anyone could ever know.
I always say if theres ANYTHING that you like about me, you can pretty much thank Jason for helping me bring it to the surface. i was such a sad lil case b4 he came along.
so yup.when you see me post about jason, don’t always think about the whole christmas fiasco and all the shit that is negative. maybe it will help if you see him the way i do. the guy that has been there through thick and thin for 6 years no matter what kinda crap we put eachother through!!