Well I am finally to the point where I can manage to get out of the bed and semi eat like normal ( would help if I got my mom over to take me to the store with some coupons lol)
I would have probably been on earlier in the week, but we had an internet snafu again. It seems like when I had AT&T come out and check on my internet a couple of weeks ago that the guy broke some of the prongs in the jack…We know it had to be him because David had just changed that jack the day before and it was fine!> That in conjunction with a loose dsl cable …yeah..but we are back online and things seem to be going well with it..we even ended up with a Dual Band modem to boot! ๐
I can’t say i’m “OVER” What happened…because i’m not. Jason finally got me thinking about “real” food when he told me about the B.R.A.T diet(perks of having an ex who works at a hospital in the cafeteria no?) (bannanas /rice/applesauce and toast) I went for toast and it almost killed me since it was the first real food that I had ate in 4 days or more! I had kept myself to juice and 2 cans of beef broth for the most part. ..I was starting to scare even ME!
I have just been able to adapt myself into a position where I can “DEAL” with it for now. It is far from begun and I won’t really know anymore than I know right now until the first week in august…and even then..I won’t really know anything for a while longer. ๐ I hope one day to at least tell a few select non judgemental people online what happened..but..I don’t know. we’ll have to see. Honestly, all I can ask is you keep me in your thoughts/prayers/and continue to send positive thoughts my way…
Today David is working again on a Friday. It helps because of the overtime but goodness sakes it makes me have another long boring day by myself!
I don’t have much planned …I don’t know exactly when david will get off and i’m trying to wash up some clothes and maybe nap some. I am CRAVING ruby tuesdays salad bar like mad. We might have to go have it for dinner.
I am trying to get to the point where i’m perked up enough so I can go tanning/straighten my hair and get to that version of normal me.I hadn’t been able to listen to music in the whole 2 weeks until tuesday..it comes in spurts..i’m knowing i’m gonna be ok..and be stronger. it’s just getting to that point!
more later!