As you know, BE Society is doing a 30 day month long blogging challenge again, and I am really excited about it. We are only on day 2 (well 3, I am running behind as usual ๐ ) and you can totally catch up and participate with us. Check out this post on the BE blog for more info: June 2014 30 Day Blog Challenge with BE Society
I have to say that there is not a lot of things that I am really afraid of… .I have always been one of those people that says that FEAR stands for : Fantasizing Events that Appear Real or however it is said.ย Most of my fears though that I do have don’t have a particular reasoning behind them, they are just things that always bothered me.ย Anywho, I will try to pick a few and explain them the best that I can ๐
My biggest fear has always been a fear of the dark…and I am not so much scared of it as I was when I was a child. I always thought (and still believe) That as a child I would see things in the dark. I can’t really explain that any better lol because it is kind of one of those things that is almost impossible for me to explain even now that I am older. It just was what it was. I have always slept with a light on of some sorts. I also had a bad experience with some girls that we went to church with when I was a young girl. They found out I was scared of the dark and we were all at one of their houses and our parents were in one part of the house and we were in a part that was being added on to their house and they basically put me in the dark and wouldn’t let me out. They lived out in the country so it was really dark and they would just pop out of no where and be mean to me. It was horrible ๐
I am also a “believer” of sorts of ghosts /spirits/legends/ and the stories that go along with them (which kind of ties into this afraid of the dark thing) but I am even more scared of ones that people in the family, especially my dad tells because you know your dad isn’t going to tell you something that isn’t true(or my dad at least) he tells some really crazy ones that I might have to get him to re-tell and make a blog post about around halloween. I guess I am scared because I do believe? lol
loosing someone i love is a fear that I have that ultimately will happen, and it already has of course. I lost my great grandma 4 years ago and as I always say I was lucky that the first person that I truly loved that died didn’t happen in my life until I was 26 years old! I was really lucky to have a great grandma in my life that many years as well.ย I know that this will happen again to someone I love and I am always kind of afraid of WHO and WHAT will cause it (God willing they don’t suffer and it isn’t a bad circumstance you know?) and how it will effect me(which sounds selfish, I know.. but if something were to happen to like my mom or dad or david or my grandma or someone like that I would probably shut down for a long time. I don’t handle death like a normal person I don’t believe. Which I know everyone has their own way to grieve and everything)