ugh today is a nasty gray blah day. it hasn’t actually rained yet, and there have been some patches of sun, but you get my point. after a week of brightness, and me feeling so alive and awake..today i just want to lay in the bed.
david told me not to make anything for dinner yet. i offered to make spaghetti, soup, chicken fried steaks, or a pizza. so whatever. i hate the last couple of days before he gets paid and we get to go to the store. we are low on everything and we really don’t have the option of being picky
so i’m not sure if we are moving with my parents or not. i really really really cannot get it into my head that shadow would be ok as an outdoor cat. i just don’t know. i mean he’d be happy i’m sure..but it would break my heart!
david and i owe SO much more on credit cards than i realized. i’m actually embarassed that we owe as much as we do. but i kinda know paying a minimum payment isnt really gonna do that much
last night he when he was in his tizzy over the stupid entertainment center (which btw, he hates i hate and he has threatened to sale before) (so why he is in a fit to make it part of my room over there if we move is beyond me) he started bringing up how most of the credit card debt ISNT his fault. i was already in the bed listening to my ipod (ooh i need to go charge that lol)
i was like excuse me but WTF? your brother crashed my freaking computer! your the one who rushed over to bestbuy and bought me this laptop. that computer did eventually come back to life but it is NOT the same. and i dont have the patience to sit holed up in shadows room to fix it.
the digital camera, thats not my fault either. my mom bought me a 70 buck camera at walmart. when i took it back , i gave david the money to put on the new one..which was about 140. he didnt do that he bought something else with it. so thats not my fault either.
i hate money. its the root of all evil. and if it werent for money i think david and i would be better off.
well I need to go put some socks on..my feet are FROZE
so more latter gators
ng