Last night while david was at scotts i looked up one of my ex-guys on myspace. just to be nosey, because he never had a myspace when we were together. anyways I found him.
it looks like he has been having a blast without me. looks like he’s doing some poor girl the way that he did me though. lots of pictures of her, and her kid..but he says hes still single.
anyways i cant believe he got a myspace. or a digital camera. or that he’s traveling around places having fun. I mean i guess its not really a shock. I didnt suppose that he would be sitting around pining for me after two years.
this is the guy who was so psychologicaly damaging to me. he treated me fine i suppose but he kept me where he wanted me and got all the benefits he wanted from me, without having the title of a boyfriend..
anyways for 2 years I hadnt really given him much thought. this is the guy who took my virginity (TMI??) but anyways I have ALWAYS hated him for that. and the circumstances that were around that.
but seeing him happy has made me wonder what could have been. and for the first time in 2 years made me wonder about some things.
not that i’m gonna run away and try to get back with him or anything like that lol .. just brought up alot of stuff…and it was my fault for snooping the web for him
see i do need psych helP!
more latter
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