Last night while david was at scotts i looked up one of my ex-guys on myspace. just to be nosey, because he never had a myspace when we were together. anyways I found him. it looks like he has been having a blast without me. looks like he's doing some poor girl the way that he did me though. lots of pictures of her, and her kid..but he says hes still single. anyways i cant believe he got a myspace. or a digital camera. or that he's traveling around places having fun. I mean i guess its not really a shock. I didnt suppose that he would be sitting around pining for me after two years. this is the guy who was so psychologicaly damaging to me. he treated me fine i suppose but he kept me where he wanted me and got all the benefits he wanted from me, without having the title of a boyfriend.. anyways for 2 years I hadnt really given him much thought. this is the guy who took my virginity (TMI??) but anyways I have ALWAYS hated him for that. and the circumstances that were around … [Read more...]
baby fever
I am really really wanting to get pregnant right now. I ain't getting any younger my friends. plus, with all of my health problems the sooner the better. who knows if I can even get pregnant you know? I really want a baby within the next year or so ..i'm gonna be 25 and I don't want to be having kids late in life. Most of you that come here , don't know some of the things from my past. back in january 2005 i'm 99% sure that I had a miscarriage. It would have been Jason's baby. (back then there was a jason & a mark and latter on a tim) mark was a control freak, jason was like my best friend with advantages and I dated tim for almost 1 year. anyways, sometimes i wonder about all the problems that i have now and if they aren't because of some of the things that happened back then. well more latter. i'm trying to get some stuff done around the house & eat some salad & watch days of our lives here in a lil while ng … [Read more...]